angiebaby
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Thankyou for your prompt reply RLR, much appreciated! It did scare me because i have only had them in the day before, as i stated. Also i am still off work at the moment so i cannot just go to work and do a routine ECG on myself for reassurance. My counsellor says that this is a very good thing although this will make things harder for me but it is still a wonderful opportunity for me to teach my body and mind that there really is nothing wrong and there is no need to check. I understand this totally, however, i must admit to now that if i was still at work i would have done an ECG just to make sure that nothing was different and nothing had happened. Not good i know, but you understand how much we rely on reassurance. So yes i suppose i am struggling as i cannot do an ECG at this time and i understand that it would most probably show nothing, same as before. But it is very difficult for me. It was a shock but even though i didn't think that i would be able to cope and be able to go back to sleep, i did infact go back to sleep and so far, it is now 11.05pm in the UK, i have not had anymore today which is also helping to confirm to my mind and body that there is nothing wrong. But i firmly believe that i will have some tonight and i will be shocked if i don't, and i know that i will have some tomorrow. This is not anticipating the worst or anything, just the knowledge that i do have them everyday as a rule. But now i am also concerned that i will have them whilst i am in bed asleep again and they will wake me. I think my main problem is a control issue and of course i am not in control of my heart or any other automatic system inside my body. I cannot stop them and i still do fear very much that they will not stop at some point and i will be stuck with them constantly for ever. The fear of the ectopics starting again, as they often do, and just carrying on and on and not stopping at all does frighten me. And i know that this is something i will have to work on, but it is a slow process. Thanks again for your kind reply.xx
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