We got back yesterday and as soon as i walked in my house i didn't recognize anything. :'(  I just want to sit and cry my eyes out but i haven't got the energy or the tears anymore.  I just feel totally drunk but without drinking anything.  I have tried to accept this feeling and carry on, i'm just floaty and feel like i am in a cloud.  I hate this so much and am so low right now.  Nothing is real to me and i am scared.

Hi

Don't be scared..

I've had these feelings, not as much as you but we all react differently, I believe this is anxiety and probably tiredness, being tired is awful, I get disorientated and have no interest in anything, and I forget what I'm saying all the time!  Anxiety can make things feel sureal.  

I may be way off here but it seems you may be associating your home with how you feel, and maybe got anxious about coming home, lets face it who wants to come home when the've had a lovely holiday and can relax and be away from lifes stresses, ( I know I didn't and as silly as it may be but I cried before I come home, not because I do not like my home but I knew my husband had to go back to work and we'd be home to the normal routine) if you were feeling like this on holiday then obviously I'm way off.  But I truly think it's anxiety.

I hope you are feeling better now, make sure you get enough sleep and fluids and don't forget to eat properly.

Have a look at my post on Anxiety Symptoms!

Kath x

Hi Angie,
I agree with what Kathryn said, it could be that you associate home with symptoms etc & please try not to worry about the DP /DR stuff. I have had that too & it always disappears quickly if I ignore it.
I hope you feel better today, maybe you just need to get back in your routine abit.
love Seffie xx

Take it one day at a time, and maybe set yourself one little task to do each day and reward yourself and make a real point of telling yourself well done for doing it.
When you are feeling this rotten, you need to be really kind to yourself. It might feel a little silly but you need to be kind to yourself and talk to yourself nicely at all times.
Big hug - hope you feel better soon.
xxx

Thankyou.
I am only taking Omeprazole/Losec - 10mg once a day, i do not take anything else at all.  I am too sensitive to everything so i won't take the risk with anything - too chicken!
The unreality first started a couple of years ago, but not associated with the PTSD or anxiety and depression.  It came on gradually to start with whilst the gp had put me on Seroxat.  I went back to the gp and explained how i was feeling and they increased the dose.  I started suffering more so went back to the gp and they increased it again.  So again, i went back to the gp and yet again they increased the dose.  By this time i thought i was definatly loosing my mind and i would either be commited or die.  I went back again to the gp and explained and they said that i should start to wean off it.  Which i slowly did and i have not taken any for two years.  I did read some literature on Seroxat and started to feel better as this was stating that even though they are supposed to leave your system fairly quickly, it is known that people can still suffer with the side effects for about a year afterwards.  This gave me hope.  But upon checking my diary i found out that i hadn't been taking it for over two years now, so it cannot be that.  I believe that the Seroxat started the problem and now that my body has learnt this 'feeling' it is struggling to let it go.  I must admit though as time has passed somewhat it has eased a little.  I used to get it all day everyday and now it comes on quickly and in intense waves.  This then makes me disorientated and causes me anxiety and can bring upon panic.  I try and just take a deep breathe and tell myself that it is a normal feeling that just feels abnormal at the moment and it will pass.  Reassure myself that i am not 'going mad' and it will not last forever.  But i must admit that it still scared the hell out of me everytime it happens.  
As for Saturday upon returning from my holiday:  I did not recognize the house and it did scare me.  Everything was strange and unusual and i was walking in the ever present cloud and floaty feeling - which i do get everyday anyway - but this was severe.  By Sunday evening i was feeling a little better about it and it had eased off a bit.  I had done my usual reading and this feeling is very common and also common on returning from a holiday so i have tried not to let it bother me as much as i can.
Depersonalization/derealisation/unreality etc, etc, is very scary and you do feel as though it will never go.  I have tried to just go with it and relax and just let it go over me.  It feels strange and scary, especially when your body is constantly telling you that something is wrong so why are you not panicking about it.  I think that is why it also feels so strange.  But i have held out and not panicked and just carried on, very hard though it is, and the feeling has stayed.  But i do believe that if this is constantly practised, not letting it bother you at all, then eventually it may subside.  I live in hope anyway.  As you may remember i have had an MRI of my head and neck and they were clear, so i know that it is not a neurological problem.  So by process of elimination - it must be mental.  And it does help to know that i am not alone in this.xx