Well, look at you!!!! Congratulations, Kathryn. I had been sort of thinking about you from time to time, wondering how you're getting along.

Your progress should serve as inspiration for all. Indeed, your perserverence is to be highly commended, for it's the hurdle that must be crossed in order to succeed. And succeed you have!

Imagine that. Now you see that you can obtain anything you wish and I truly mean that. The confidence and determination that you've employed to achieve your present status can take you as far as you wish to go. The sky's the limit now.

You never have to look back now, except for the purpose of realizing the distance you've traveled ahead.

Best regards and Good Health

Wow Kathryn, you are truly an inspiration!  We are all so proud of you.  It just shows how you can go on with your life and feel accomplishment and joy.  It's so important to do something that takes you outside yourself, to keep busy and have goals.  You've really done this and made so much progress.
Keep up the good work!

DianaJJ

Thank you all for your kind reply's.

RLR I see that you were right, even though at the time it was quite hard to accept, but your words made sense and gave me the kick up the rear that I needed, I do get quite defensive (as you may have noticed in the past) but I do think about what has been said and I'm glad I did.

I still have some personal hurdles I want to get past, like being able to go for a run without fearing that I'll get a bought of weird and wonderful beats!!

But I think I have learnt to live with them, and there are some weeks I think for goodness sake why am I getting so many this week! I still get the negative thoughts but I have trained myself to counter balance them, it was a hard process identifying my negative thoughts and challenging them.  

The way I see it is I spent years and years thinking the worst as so I didn't get disappointed, I also put a show on if I was disappointed as I didn't like people making a fuss,  I had some major things that although at the time we're big I used to think well others have been through worse, and gradually over time it got to the point where I ended up with the anxiety disorder, so I had to accept the big issues that had happened in my life and start thinking more positively not worrying or thinking I'm a failure if I didn't get a job or didn't achieve better than someone else also that not everything was my fault!  It was obviously more involved and to start with I thought this is never going to work, but it has I mean my brain is starting to make more automatic positive responses to things, where as before I'd trained myself to react negatively, so it will take a while still I think to get it to respond like that most the time.
(Sorry I hope this makes sense) But through being less anxious my stomach is less sensitive, I still stick to decaf and try to make sure I eat little and often and sit when eating, but like yesterday I walked along eating a sausage sandwich so wasn't surprised when I got indigestion and a few big missed beats!

My nephew is home now, and having inhalers antibiotics and steriods and is more his usual self, apparantly he had a virus that had hit his whole body and one side of his chest was infected, which affected his airways quite severly, thank you for your support.

Kath x