Hi Kevin,

I really do understand what you are going through.  Most of my life I have worried about everything, mostly health related.  Then when something really does pop up and is detectable I think "Well, i was right about that, so I must be right about what I am experiencing now."

But after time, and worrying about sooo many things, there comes a point where we must ask ourselves this; "how many times have we been right about what we THINK we have?" hardly ever, if any times..

I understand like you in that i always find something else to worry about.  I think it's beause we are in a state of chronic anxiety, even if we don't feel anxious, our brains are in constant, "fight or flight mode" and we are naturally very sensitive beings and are always hypervigilent to our bodies.

It's a hard cycle to break and when we "feel" symptoms we think the worst!  Like me and my constant pvc's!!  It's very hard, but I feel positive for all of us on here that if we can find the root to our anxieties (which you are on the road to discovering through counseling yourself and please keep it up!!), then eventually we will learn strategies and coping mechanisms to turn down the fight or flight responses we have deeply ingrained in our brains.

It is a temporary problem as long as you allow it to be.  The more you get upset (and trust me I know this from experience all to well) the more adrenaline surges and tension you will continue to feel.

You really will be ok, Kevin.  You are ok!  We are ok, we just have to believe that!  

I am very proud of you for getting past your fear of the palpitations, and you will get over this odd feeling too.  I personally think it is built up chronic anxiety and it takes time to sort it all out.  Will we all ever feel perfect and joyous everyday?  Of course not.  Noone does, every single day, but we will feel better not constantly being on guard to everything and be able to look forward to the future without doom and gloom...

You will be fine!  Continue to talk to your therapist tomorrow about this.  this is a normal repsonse to chronic anxiety and in time you will feel better I promise you...

Have a good night...


Steff