I'm a 22 year old male. I smoke tobacco and marijuana on occasion. ( I know, I have to quit, I worry about my lungs too) The past 2 years I have been having a heart palpitations; I just had one a hour or so ago. Its really hard to explain, but I will try my best. When I get them, It usually lasts for what seems like 'about 2-3 beats of my heart' I just become aware of the heavy strange beating in my chest, Its almost like my heart feels like a sponge squeezing inside. Its so very hard to explain. I think I get sorta lightheaded from it, but I also believe that is from the shock of realizing its occurring. It stops just as fast as it starts. and I'm left dumbfounded and terrified. It may occur once or twice a month maybe. Its just so terrifying; I worry I'm going to die. (Which by the way, is my ultimate fear, that crosses my mind on a daily basis)
See, I've been to the doctor and had an EKG done, which came back normal (obviously, because it didn't occur while the test was being run) He ordered a holter monitor, but I had issues with the leads staying stuck on me for some reason, and was going to have it redone, but the transmission went to hell in my car. Therefore my ability to get around is gone practically. I know I have to get back to the doctor asap which is the only sure fire way to get this figured out, But here is the issue right now.
I worry alot, and easily too. I worry about silly things sometimes, I stress at the thought of losing a loved one. I worry about my health alot because I know I could live a healthier life. I know anxiety can be a contributing factor for the palps, but I am so afraid my chest is gonna start hurting and I'm gonna die. I don't get dizzy at all or feel faint ever.
But the reason I'm posting is because I'm so darned scared. I don't wanna die from this, and I don't think I'm going to, but its sooo scary. I just reread this post and I can't believe how incoherent it is. I'm so worried about all this I cant even talk straight. I just sit and focus on it and I don't know what to do. I know I have to see my pcp, but that wont help me this instant. Besides that, I try to educate myself by reading up on the condition online, and all you read is negative things which just make the stress level rise even higher.
I dunno what to do, I just can't stand being scared anymore. Its terrible :'(
I'll add anything relevant if it comes to me, It's kinda hard to think right this second. I don't know if I mentioned this, But I get them once maybe twice a month. I do not consume much caffeine, I drink mostly water.
Oh yeah, Stupid that I forgot to mention this. I currently take 80mg of Propranolol twice a day for high blood pressure. Despite being on a beta blocker they still occur. (which I worry if that alone should be more cause for concern)