I know that without our RLR, I would be quite insane by now.

When I get a bad episode, I read the things he has said (I printed loads off) or sometimes I say over to myself "you'll be fine" and I cannot express how much it helps. BUT, when I am in palp mode I also get depressed and weepy. I sometimes get a sudden head rush, feel light headed and a panic attack hits me at the same time as the palp. Other times they are light and I ignore them. Some days I get just one or two and get a bit complacent and even dare to be hopeful. Other days I despair and feel sad and so alone with them.

Its hard for anyone who has never had them to understand and so even if I tell a friend, they sympathize but forget.

I was a therapist for 16 years and had to stop work because I just could not "be there" hen they struck, which of course can be any time.

I have struggled financially ever since. I hate them, and feel almost ashamed that I have let them rule my life, but rule it they do

There does need to be a book. There are a few passages in books that refer to them, but no books seems to explain them medically as RLR has done