I must admit, I'm not one who often dwells on issues to this extent, but for the past year and a half, my anxiety disorder has become so painful to deal with.. it all culminated in palpitations some time around early last year.. I received help.. moved on.. then in early Jan, it all started to rush back. again.

I had a 3 day monitor with two probes, I exercised during the time, and they picked up 'no abnormality, other than slight bundle branch block' (The kind that doesn't matter.. I forget if that's left or right). I had an EKG, and a blood work.. but I still feel like there's something I need to deal with.

I woke up this morning, the palpitations have calmed over the past week at least.. and began to try and get some work done. I had a palpitation, something I tried to ignore, despite the unsettling fear it causes me. And for once, something strange happened. I had another. Then another. Then another.. I finally reached for the phone to call for an ambulance.. I seemed to have calmed slightly enough to just give my boyfriend a call (This is all 30 minutes ago..). He told me to calm down. I told him I was afraid because my heart rate leaped up and my face tingled. (My arms have also really hurt this morning but I'm hoping it's unrelated because they both hurt around the muscle in the elbow and have done all morning.)

He told me it might've been to do with the fact I had quite a large sugar intake this morning. I'm alone at home, absolutely terrified, and don't really know what to do about this, or what to say.

I don't want to go on anti-depressants, and I don't want to be scared anymore. I'm scared that I'm going to fall over and die.. I exercise 1 hour a day normally, intensive cycling, and do fine. I sleep well, mostly eat well, and keep myself occupied with my studies.

I really don't want my life to go at the age of 18.

Thanks a lot for your response.. I guess my questions would be:

Should I have any more tests done? What can I do to alleviate the stress and anxiety response? How should I react to heart palpitations when my natural response is utter terror?

Thank you, RLR. I've been living with an anxiety disorder for a long while. The other day I was discussing my issues with a friend, who suggested to me I was stressed. It's not something I think about. I'm 18 years old and I lead a life cooking and cleaning for two, studying an incredibly complex electronics engineering course and keeping my body in shape with very difficult exercise every day. I came to the conclusion I was stressed. It's something I'll try and keep in mind, and hope it'll help to think about the underlying assets, and 'de-stress' myself, as such. I suppose re-assurance is something that I've lived for in the past, an underlying motivation to defeat anxiety in the short term, but ultimately something that will not fade until I learn to control the fear.