Hi bigcountry. (why do I start to sing the song "look away"in my head all the time I read your username)

I'm happy for you, that your heart seems to be fine.
Its absolutely true that you have to trust this. ( although I do believe in your case doctors should always be careful).
Your comment about my body quote is a good one.
I know I should trust my body more. and that the disbalance you think of could very well come from me worrying to much, adrenaline, cortisol, and so on.
I quess I just cant believe or accept that my anxiety and chronic hyperventilation causes all my symptoms
When my tsh is 3,8 and that is a bit high, I think.. see its my thyroid working to slow. if my calcium is on the highest point of what is normal 2.59 mmol than I think i have an underlying serious problem and that the bloodtest indicate something IS wrong.
but my doc says "no" dont worry.
then I start to look on google and the net what these numbers mean and I do see that these arent good.
Its like you said. I dont want to die cause my doc things I'ám anxious and therefore do not need examination anymore, cause my heart was ok the last time , or nothing is wrong
thats my puzzle and problem.
kind regards !