hi Bayroot
I recognize this all the way. When i',m playing my synth, try to swim, try to drive my car. wheel, try to take something out of the cabinet. lean on my elbows , try to walk, i get more pain on my chest and palps or fast heart beat
Like you and RLR tell me... dont worry. just play and do your thing, nothing will happen. nothing is wrong.
Thats the textbook talking. its true but not that easy
now back to people with feelings and flesh and blood. I understand how difficult and annoying it is. I cant do anything or my body goes haywire. Its not that easy too experience these annoying palps and increased heart beats. (you say you arent afraid of them but yet you willing to stop what your love doing...? If I wrote this , I would read i'm inconsistent and anxious..sorry but I had to write this down,
I understand its not anxiety.. its depressing and demoralizing. you dont know why and what ..it kills the joy you get from doing things and in the end you avoid even that things to avoid the sensations.
I quess avoiding it or dont want to play anymore because of it is not the solution , and offcourse not nescessary but I understand where you coming from my friend.
bodily position is my best quess. Anxiety when doing something you like seems strange to me
for instance when i raise my arms i often above my head I get more problems. Carrying a bag on my shoulder. my chest explodes. and big palps