Hello
Now I'd better have said hello and told you a little more about me.
6 years ago I witnessed a bank robbery at very close range. I was in the bank with my little son at 1 ½ years.
A half year after this event I experienced my first panic attack, I was 34 years.
Ever since my life has been destroyed by anxiety, fear of dying.
Before that I was a happy and spontaneous person I loved my work at the hospital.
I have all these years had an extreme fear of failing something with the heart, or have cardiovascular disease. My father had a heart attack when he was 48, he survived. There are others in my family who have cardiovascular disease and some have died from it.
Now I have got a lot of extra beats from the heart, and until now there is still no doctors have been able to convince me that they are harmless.
I wonder: Where do they come from? Can they do other rhythm disturbances? Can they make blood clots? Are they dangerous when you get shortness of them?
Are they dangerous when they are mainly from the activity?
Unfortunately I smoke 3 cigarettes a day, and luckily I stopped this because as soon as I smoke a cigarette so I got extra hard blow. But I am afraid that the cigarettes I have smoked in my life has done damage to my heart (and earlier I smoked more than 3 a day, then I smoked 15 cigarettes per day)
I'm afraid to die from my little son. I do not know what I should be aware of.
I've had ECG and Holter. However, these studies still? or heart may have changed?
Now I'm 39 and can no longer say that heart diseases are seldom my age group.
I would like to hear how others have come through the anxiety and extra systole, without sitting at home every day with anxiety and fear in the body. I dare not go out anymore, so I get plenty of extra shots.
Im crying for my wasted life and Im crying for fear of dying and Im crying for fear of those extra shots. :'(