Butting in...rather than following on. Just thinking back to the beginning of this thread and how we all struggled with it and how it now flows and rides and turns as we explore ourselves and our lives, as well as our bodies and the story they seem to tell.
It's hard though, to be totally honest with oneself and easier to use our intellect rather than our raw feelings. That is to say; we theorize and we ponder, but I feel we have lost the honesty (with ourselves) and the mindfulness we first attended to on this thread. Its nice to ponder and debate, but for me, after reading some of this I had a sort of epiphany:
Something I had noticed since the beginning of this thread (I realize this is probably not general but personal to me) was my body tension. I would note it as often as I could during the day. For example, sometimes...well most times, my legs would be entwined around each other in a sort of tension and I'd be hanging on to life in a sort of way because equally, my hands and arms would be hanging on to the side of a chair or clutching my other hand or just curled into a fist...etc etc...
It was a weird kind of revelation because my body had not left my side (so to speak
) and yet I had not, until that time way back at the start of this thread, made myself be aware of it. It was almost as if my mind and body had stopped functioning together. As well as paying attention to my body when I remembered to, every hour, I made myself pay attention to my breathing, finding it was so shallow and realizing it was no wonder I was tense.
When I began to relax, I did feel better for a long while..still had palps but few. Then I let it go, just as I let this thread go and stopped working on that tension. here I am back to the tense, hanging on for dear life, palp filled life.
Your thoughts are welcome and if you prefer not to respond, that is fine too.
Hi again...sorry to quote my own post. Just wanted to say that for me, the more I do notice my body and how tense it is, as above...and by reminding myself regularly to breath properly and to unclench - my stomach acid and palps seemed to have lessened. In fact if I catch the tension in time, I can almost ensure the acid retreats most times. I have to say I am not sure how or why it works for me...onoy that by being mindful, I am getting a little better.
I agree though, its useful f we can get to the cause...but in my experience not always necessary which is why CBT works for some. For me the cause is not so much the horrendous stress I've had, but how I view stress and how I deal with, or more appropriate to me personally, how I do not deal with it.
I do know 2 people personally who have had palps after a bereavement but they went as time passed. For me its an inability to deal with stress and it sort of manifests in my body with palps and other maladies... too many to mention